Learning –an obstruction for free expression?

 

Learning –an obstruction for free expression?

the more i read, the more i remember, the more parrot i become

memory filled with clichés, hackneyed phrases, idioms, giving an inadvertent impression that i am a learned fellow ,well read, fluent, stylish

–without revealing that i am a victim of my learning 

there are plenty of expressions– my memory readily supplies , the moment i start penning a passage. 

i want to convey a thing but i am distracted to convey a different thing

by the load of my vocabulary, phrases, quotes, episodes, similes , homilies, metaphors. 

and secretly i get a satisfaction that i am writing nicely like a great author–which i never wanted to get.

in the process my point is lost or obscured.

i am just flabbergasted to see this phenomenon happening, and it is as if i am writing by habit , not originally, but inebriated with the exuberance of my own verbosity, i tend to be a showman, a sales man of my scholarship , a curator , rather than , where i really wanted to become a creator. 

jk wrote a book named ”freedom from the known”

how true it is

all my knowing has become a cage imprisoning my real being aspiring to be innovative to discover and present a new world to the readers

words creep in here , which are unnecessary and i should have used some originals.

expression should be precise to the point, purposeful, a productive endeavor.

how i wish i can be as original as i want to be!

extending the thought that our exposure to things around, people we come across, experiences we undergo ——-all leave their impressions, cluttering our being, making us behave as a trained monkey under the control of his master.

moment to moment we must watch and safeguard our original perfect nature from all tendencies–like how his father kept rishyashringa, isolated from all
and preserved his life to grow in to a chaste rishi who commanded the rains to shower in the kingdom