I did not want to see God,

I did not want to see God, 
at least for a moment odd 

but from me he will not go away 
never freeing me from his sway

i scold him, criticism him,
beat him, out i drive him 
, 
i lock myself in my room,
to be in my own gloom

switching of all lights,
closing my both eyes tight

yet he comes to me unaware
he is there like the unseen air