HOW ST IS SAVING ME FROM MY OWN WORST ENEMY: MYSELF!By: Chana Meddin on Jul 13, 2012 at 08:44 am | Response: 78

I am my own worst enemy. Blind to the wiles of my own mind and ego, countless "well-wishers" have enjoyed the opportunity to point out my flaws with anger, judgement, criticism infused with "how I could be better" and enough ammo I have built walls around myself to survive the cruelty behind their intention. Whether or not what they are saying is true becomes irrelevant when you feel like the Mo..more...

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Rishi Vasanth

Jul 13, 2012 at 04:19 pm

If surgery is the need,

the learned surgeon like me to keep quiet?

no,

it is my profession to work with knife and scissor,

to cut him in to pieces, to tear him into rags

and, definitely, to cause some pain in the patient,

who is in self anesthesia,

who is like a stone that is dead .

sure he will wake up to life,

his crying and screaming

fuming and foaming,

fomenting and lamenting,

blogging and commenting

is the proof of my operation success ,

ok, he has not died ,

despite my sincere efforts .

next time beter luck,

in the meanwhile i pray lord chana basava [ google ]

to grant me more powers to do the execution guaranteedly

chana

here is my sharpest knife[ i mean sword ]

come attack me if you dare

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Chana Meddin Replies to Rishi Vasanth

Jul 13, 2012 at 11:36 pm

I send to Rishi

all that he sees

knife to cut me

how to find me?

must go deep

to find the diamonds

must blast HARD

to find the KINDNESS

he thinks he kills

our living wills

when Rishi

strikes

with bloody knife

he frees us only

we fly Boldly

for Rishi's freed us

who will feed us?

Must spread care

with none to spare

his sharpened blade

we're forced to wade

the water's dark

we feel AFRAID

but Rishi coming

so much start LOVING

ALCHEMICAL KNIFING

TURNS INTO LIFING!

(didn't get me this time, Rishiji, better luck next time! 🙂you a heart surgeon, too? who that person to you?)

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Rishi Vasanth Replies to Chana Meddin

Yesterday at 02:27 am

Fantastic as ever, pranams, cm madam,

i have tried 100 times to cure that great patient, result is nil--anesthesia continues , i will not reveal name for the time being

i read the blog , got it, so i was reminded of my experiences.

your kindness is a treasure in st

pardon this impudent, his pen goes berserk at times

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Chana Meddin Replies to Rishi Vasanth

Yesterday at 04:20 am

OH! OH! OH! JUST caught "i have tried 100 times..." GOT IT! my patient what he do? i have secret blog (sorry, cut finger, hard to type) called HONEYANTDREAMING.blogspot.in i think...post on top "set fire to the rain" about the patient...not likey no "impudent pen!" Ha! Read all about it, extra! EXTRA!

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Chana Meddin

Yesterday at 04:41 am

Oops, honeyantdreamer.blogspot.comor something maybe nothing...

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Rishi Vasanth Replies to Chana Meddin

Yesterday at 11:32 am

Http://honeyantdreamer.blogspot.in/

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Chana Meddin Replies to Rishi Vasanth

Yesterday at 12:29 pm

Thanks, what do i know?!

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Rishi Vasanth

Yesterday at 11:39 am

My best word flabbergasted is insufficient

i saved treasure

definitely it is a creativity volcano, exploding with all fire, fury smoke dust mixed with cool breeze, fragrance, a wild dance of shiva ----i learnt new lessons on blogging. rather creative nonchalance, yet, truthful

i feel that all the st frogwells must have a peep into this dazzling brightness

i am, grateful that you found me worthy to share this ''no less spiritual gymnastics''

i can write unending , but briefly , simply, it is a genius flooding

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Chana Meddin Replies to Rishi Vasanth

Yesterday at 04:15 am

Ha-Ha, Rishi, YOU AND I ARE AGREED! my "impudent pen" not well received in the West! he on the other end labeled ME berserk, tho, not my pen!!! Waaaaaaaaah, the ego, the ego and the loss of a cherished friend to my impudent friend!!! 🙂don't forget to tell me story...

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Rishi Vasanth Replies to Chana Meddin

Yesterday at 11:45 am

In thisyour blog, i feel i must quote

''I have brain damage. And I make a lot of stuff up in my head and live in a world where things are supposed to happen but don't because it never actually occurs to me that for them to happen Ihave to MAKE THEM HAPPEN. It's a nice world. But filled with flies.

Having brain damage is highly individualistic for each person, but we live in a world that "the others" do not understand because it only exists for us. That is how and why I draw. So, I can see and show other people how it looks in there. Good, bad, pretty, ugly, raw, art brut (as the French call "Outsider Art") the official international magazine representing people like us is called: "Raw Vision" and is published in Great Britain. It gets us.

Even when we don't. Which is most, if not all, of the time.''

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Chana Meddin Replies to Rishi Vasanth

Yesterday at 12:42 pm

Where was that? writing for me like watching clouds in bright, azure sky while gentle breezes illustrate stories that move chapter to chapter when clouds part, separate, come together, dance!

when they have passed, they take with them all memory of what they inspired...i rarely remember anything i write on here, for that matter! but your friend who prefers anesthesia...that blog post was about mine; and my own "impudent, whose pen goes berserk sometimes" bore witness to what he tried to hide so he cut the rope...giving me new life: dying while living. when a Mighty Wind blows, how many FACEBOOK fans gonna replace the loyalty of a true friend who set fire to the rain because he can't face impudent with anesthesia any more than oil and water cannot mix.

we "impudents" Ha! Ha! so much trouble it gets me into they call it chana jor garam.

i read YOUR blog, too: you ever see that picture of the "7,000" in front of Golden dome in 1979,

i think? i am in it. i still have the hat...the hat. my queendom for a hat!

the hat i wore that cold winter he came...

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Rishi Vasanth Replies to Chana Meddin

Yesterday at 01:41 pm

Jaigurudev, blessed you are, one of 7000, you are part of my great maharishi, so my vandanam, punah punah

brain damage'' copied from honey ant dreams

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Chana Meddin Replies to Rishi Vasanth

Yesterday at 10:50 pm

Rishi, i believe i owe you a profound apology for anything i may have written about your Beloved here in the past. He saved my life...i read his Bhagavad Gita and longed for the rest of the chapters to be translated by him. This in 1975, and then met him for the first time and was smitten. He saved my life in ways you'll never know. Yes, I was one of the original 7,000 and part of the building of what is now a bright light in the Midwest United States. Jai Guru Dev. Please sharpen your knife for me.

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A min ago

I liked the best,his Bhagavad Gita and longed for the rest of the chapters to be translated by him.

oh,

my maharishi inside me

wants me to translate,

though late, at any rate

and self promote myself

from rishi to maharishi

let me do plagiarism of my inside

and pose as original to out side

so easy it is, guru grace, plenty

as easy as updating my profile in st

and why not take advance promotion

declare [ deceive myself ] maharishi vasanth

none knows my secrete

of my doing imitate, without hesitate

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Rishi Vasanth

A min ago

Seriously , i feel like translating, it's even fun, ---maharishi has given all , it's just extrapolation, with a little more intrapolation, .

it's noble project, puts me in to right groove instead of frittering away with trifles , may be bit by bit posting in st first

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Rishi Vasanth

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Smitten. no surprise,

gurur brahma, the supreme is higher than the highest manifested human guru

his ways are strange

but that supreme shows always the best ways , thru experiences pleasant unpleasant, puzzling intriguing flabbergasting .

yet the out come is always all good .

it's a lesson that any sathguru once lighted the self,

stays inside, not outside,

not to be met, not to be talked to,

not to be clinging on,

not to be dependent on him any more

not to be piggy back on him,

not to be carrying him on our back.

the internal guru decides all the happenings

hence some seekers quit their human guru

and chart their own path

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Rishi Vasanth

A min ago

These are independent same trees ,

not the branches of the one tree

srisri ravishankar, rishi prabhakar, late ramayogi tho were close and highly evolved under maharishi, hey felt obliged to care their inner calls and started on their own .

the result is gururbrahma appearing in different avathars

every good shishya evolves to grow , may be far surpassing their greatest gurus .

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Rishi Vasanth

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Nothing is lost, the big tree remains big, the new small plants grow, away from the shade of the big tree, taking full nourishment sun light air manure from the big world away out side

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Rishi Vasanth

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Allow the internal guru to grow and guide, regardless, no sin,

all with the greatest respect and humility to the outside human guru

in the ' maharishi maheshyogi '', now what is left is maharishi,the green tree, '' maheshyogi ''having dropped off as a dry leaf

the rishi , maharishi, brahmarshi thathwas are eternal, always getting reborn with localized values as human form

we adore human

but we adore more the original non perishable , eternal guru thathva

jaigurudev

  

God causes man to cheat, murder, pain others for god's own self motives and satisfactions.

Who ever whatever good bad useless are due to god causing it to happen .
without his permission an ant cannot bite.

we help such persons who are helpless , only when god causes us to help , otherwise we simply be inactive.
helpless harmless animals are abused and pained by human, caused by god, to make them evolve to grow wise and strong and resist domination by environ around, in the next gen, they become born better 

human decides by self awakening consciousness to spare such helpless harmless animals without giving them trauma---as soon as god directs him to do , immediately . otherwise human looks other way

why god will not come and give justice to them immediate ?
because he wants them to undergo all the required lessons of suffering , so he will not interfere for a while 

it is a moral responsibility of god to enable help each other and even innocent harmless animals too , but he has his own ways to help which a human cannot understand, with usual wisdom

 

Supreme Justice God of Universe is final, he listens to all appeals from all the living creatures .
he is ruling the universe as per his constitution, if any one does a mistake , he will not excuse , but will punish him as per his penal code. 

human being neither knows that constitution nor has ability to govern the universe better than god . such being the predicament , actions right and wrong will have the effects as per the constitution of the universe. so man can do nothing more than what his best sense tells him and has to reap the reward and punish accordingly in appropriate form

 

Complete surrender to god is the only solution for all problems .

he alone directs the whole activity of the universe from the the minutest level to the grossest .
none can comprehend his ways in totality , what ever one does , including standing on one leg or keeping head on earth

 

I have given the comprehensive response , read fully and understand them 

your asking the questions same again and again 

for the same questions, the same answers will repeat----waste excercise,
better put new questions, i can provide new answers

  

Go forward from present level to higher level 
do not get bogged down in the mud,

tho mud too is god given ,

has its relevance, its use, its context, its importance, 

choice is yours ,

to be , to walk, to run, to fly, to be free.

none can raise you except yourself, 
you have all the abilities and freedom of choice

  

She was anxious to cross the river, but was afraid to cross the river, 
''Don’t you worry ,'' said Ananda .
He lifted her and entered the river and left her on the other bank.

Sunanda grew grave .He stopped talking to Ananda.

Back in their Asram in the evening, Sunanda complained to the sage saying,
''Master,we are not supposed to come in contract with women, as we are brahmacharis. But this morning, Ananda carried a young lady across the river.''

The master called Ananda and heard what had happened.

Then he looked in to the eyes, told Sunanda.
''My boy, the lady left Ananda as soon as she crossed the river.
But she has not left you even now. Come on .shake her of your neck.’’
....................Passage from ’’’’Sidhartha’’’’ ,by Hermam Hesse

 mohe aayee na jag se laaj

tho itana jor se naachi aaj

ki ghunguroo tootu gaye

ki ghunguroo tootu gaye

pankaj udhas sings

i feel i have wings

true experience of a sadhak , having stumbled upon the one which he has been asearching life long, even in previous births

its a typical feature of any aspirant who has succeeded in finding his god

distinguishing him from the lesser

saints have sung, impromptu in its joy

its a divine certificate

  

Each has to trek own journey and discover anew the same truths of vishvam .

it is possible for any one to write any length , briefly

or to expand ranging from letter, one word, a phrase, a sentence, a few verses , a few essays a few chapters, a few books and more volumes

all wise people have been brief in their output , strong in the content,

enduring for ages but lesser writers stuffed libraries , books catching dust ,

ultimately products survive based on value , not on ads or propaganda .

approach should be / will be '' take if you like, skip if you have better choice''

we need not be be forcing nor get forced .you kindly look at my responses , and i like to have your sharp assessment , feel free to be outspoken, frank, uninhibited, even harsh , with all exuberant vocabulary"

"''Vishvam is one word when you want to be brief. Vishvam is possible of infinite description''you nicely completely said , it is my point too

if you elaborate it , it can be a life long task, of infinite number of souls, yet the story will be inadequate, incomplete, unending each elaboration will be different, new, of some part of it, some aspect of it, but never the total .hence we need not agree but simply share,what ever be the response from the receiver"

 For total transformation, come out the sanskars that have been acquired at birth, from family, society, heredity, education etc''

----yes, tallies with ''nisthraigunyo bhavarjun'', geeta

 

''Remember the gunas or attributes of the soul, and pray that you may imbibe them''----but soul is nirgun , so we need only to go beyond the gunas , to the pure nirgun soul .

 

''behaving like one of your relatives, or ancestors or tries to label you'

'---truly, human personality has all the traits of all the personalities in the universe, individual is a universe in miniature form , yatha pinde thathaa brahmande

one should be able to activate and deactivate the chosen traits at will , masterfully,

without any of the traits leaving a permanent mark ,

ie purity should not get polluted, like an expert actor ,while acting every one of navarasas , yet remains untouched by any in the core by being in contact with that pure field within,

 

each of the several traits can be cultivated to their ultimate level,

one can grow to be a poet, writer, philosopher,painter, sculptor, engineer, doctor, manager, computer expert , dancer, singer, architect, leader, soldier, saint

---any traits, or many traits, or all traits in balanced proportion and grow to be a fully blossomed flower of human personality

alert is,, not get stuck on the path by any traits, not negating any

but navigating properly, skillfully thru all the ocean of traits ,

successfully ,

 

so, first requirement is  attaining the purity of the system and then to be able to reap a crop of infinite virtues, leading to a glorious life, worldly and other worldly, iha and para , nothing overtaking any other thing out of proportion , yet all growing simultaneously to fullest stature"

 

"The whole idea of spirituality is to develop purity of the system at all levels inner, outer , getting rid of all the remnants of sanskars and be reborn in original ''yatha poorve '' state of original purity"

 

"Personality being nirgun + sagun , by proper cultivation of nirgun , yoga kshethra, we get the abundant crop of sagun , all the infinite desirable traits

 

one can develop the godly traits, traits of any chosengod, like say, one can grow to be kishan, ram, lakshmi, siva, seeta, durga, or hanuman, any devi devatha , or beings of any loka

 

hence , the need of seeds of manthra , beeja aksharas, these seeds planted in the yogakshethra sprout as those devatha mahimas in the personality"