HOW ST IS SAVING ME FROM MY OWN WORST ENEMY: MYSELF!By: Chana

 

HOW ST IS SAVING ME FROM MY OWN WORST ENEMY: MYSELF!By: Chana Meddin on Jul 13, 2012 at 08:44 am | Response: 78

I am my own worst enemy. Blind to the wiles of my own mind and ego, countless "well-wishers" have enjoyed the opportunity to point out my flaws with anger, judgement, criticism infused with "how I could be better" and enough ammo I have built walls around myself to survive the cruelty behind their intention. Whether or not what they are saying is true becomes irrelevant when you feel like the Mo..more...

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Rishi Vasanth

Jul 13, 2012 at 04:19 pm

If surgery is the need,

the learned surgeon like me to keep quiet?

no,

it is my profession to work with knife and scissor,

to cut him in to pieces, to tear him into rags

and, definitely, to cause some pain in the patient,

who is in self anesthesia,

who is like a stone that is dead .

sure he will wake up to life,

his crying and screaming

fuming and foaming,

fomenting and lamenting,

blogging and commenting

is the proof of my operation success ,

ok, he has not died ,

despite my sincere efforts .

next time beter luck,

in the meanwhile i pray lord chana basava [ google ]

to grant me more powers to do the execution guaranteedly

chana

here is my sharpest knife[ i mean sword ]

come attack me if you dare

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Chana Meddin Replies to Rishi Vasanth

Jul 13, 2012 at 11:36 pm

I send to Rishi

all that he sees

knife to cut me

how to find me?

must go deep

to find the diamonds

must blast HARD

to find the KINDNESS

he thinks he kills

our living wills

when Rishi

strikes

with bloody knife

he frees us only

we fly Boldly

for Rishi's freed us

who will feed us?

Must spread care

with none to spare

his sharpened blade

we're forced to wade

the water's dark

we feel AFRAID

but Rishi coming

so much start LOVING

ALCHEMICAL KNIFING

TURNS INTO LIFING!

(didn't get me this time, Rishiji, better luck next time! you a heart surgeon, too? who that person to you?)

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Rishi Vasanth Replies to Chana Meddin

Yesterday at 02:27 am

Fantastic as ever, pranams, cm madam,

i have tried 100 times to cure that great patient, result is nil--anesthesia continues , i will not reveal name for the time being

i read the blog , got it, so i was reminded of my experiences.

your kindness is a treasure in st

pardon this impudent, his pen goes berserk at times

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Chana Meddin Replies to Rishi Vasanth

Yesterday at 04:20 am

OH! OH! OH! JUST caught "i have tried 100 times..." GOT IT! my patient what he do? i have secret blog (sorry, cut finger, hard to type) called HONEYANTDREAMING.blogspot.in i think...post on top "set fire to the rain" about the patient...not likey no "impudent pen!" Ha! Read all about it, extra! EXTRA!

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Chana Meddin

Yesterday at 04:41 am

Oops, honeyantdreamer.blogspot.comor something maybe nothing...

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Rishi Vasanth Replies to Chana Meddin

Yesterday at 11:32 am

Http://honeyantdreamer.blogspot.in/

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Chana Meddin Replies to Rishi Vasanth

Yesterday at 12:29 pm

Thanks, what do i know?!

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Rishi Vasanth

Yesterday at 11:39 am

My best word flabbergasted is insufficient

i saved treasure

definitely it is a creativity volcano, exploding with all fire, fury smoke dust mixed with cool breeze, fragrance, a wild dance of shiva ----i learnt new lessons on blogging. rather creative nonchalance, yet, truthful

i feel that all the st frogwells must have a peep into this dazzling brightness

i am, grateful that you found me worthy to share this ''no less spiritual gymnastics''

i can write unending , but briefly , simply, it is a genius flooding

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Chana Meddin Replies to Rishi Vasanth

Yesterday at 04:15 am

Ha-Ha, Rishi, YOU AND I ARE AGREED! my "impudent pen" not well received in the West! he on the other end labeled ME berserk, tho, not my pen!!! Waaaaaaaaah, the ego, the ego and the loss of a cherished friend to my impudent friend!!! don't forget to tell me story...

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Rishi Vasanth Replies to Chana Meddin

Yesterday at 11:45 am

In thisyour blog, i feel i must quote

''I have brain damage. And I make a lot of stuff up in my head and live in a world where things are supposed to happen but don't because it never actually occurs to me that for them to happen Ihave to MAKE THEM HAPPEN. It's a nice world. But filled with flies.

Having brain damage is highly individualistic for each person, but we live in a world that "the others" do not understand because it only exists for us. That is how and why I draw. So, I can see and show other people how it looks in there. Good, bad, pretty, ugly, raw, art brut (as the French call "Outsider Art") the official international magazine representing people like us is called: "Raw Vision" and is published in Great Britain. It gets us.

Even when we don't. Which is most, if not all, of the time.''

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Chana Meddin Replies to Rishi Vasanth

Yesterday at 12:42 pm

Where was that? writing for me like watching clouds in bright, azure sky while gentle breezes illustrate stories that move chapter to chapter when clouds part, separate, come together, dance!

when they have passed, they take with them all memory of what they inspired...i rarely remember anything i write on here, for that matter! but your friend who prefers anesthesia...that blog post was about mine; and my own "impudent, whose pen goes berserk sometimes" bore witness to what he tried to hide so he cut the rope...giving me new life: dying while living. when a Mighty Wind blows, how many FACEBOOK fans gonna replace the loyalty of a true friend who set fire to the rain because he can't face impudent with anesthesia any more than oil and water cannot mix.

we "impudents" Ha! Ha! so much trouble it gets me into they call it chana jor garam.

i read YOUR blog, too: you ever see that picture of the "7,000" in front of Golden dome in 1979,

i think? i am in it. i still have the hat...the hat. my queendom for a hat!

the hat i wore that cold winter he came...

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Rishi Vasanth Replies to Chana Meddin

Yesterday at 01:41 pm

Jaigurudev, blessed you are, one of 7000, you are part of my great maharishi, so my vandanam, punah punah

brain damage'' copied from honey ant dreams

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Chana Meddin Replies to Rishi Vasanth

Yesterday at 10:50 pm

Rishi, i believe i owe you a profound apology for anything i may have written about your Beloved here in the past. He saved my life...i read his Bhagavad Gita and longed for the rest of the chapters to be translated by him. This in 1975, and then met him for the first time and was smitten. He saved my life in ways you'll never know. Yes, I was one of the original 7,000 and part of the building of what is now a bright light in the Midwest United States. Jai Guru Dev. Please sharpen your knife for me.

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Rishi Vasanth Replies to Chana Meddin

A min ago

I liked the best,his Bhagavad Gita and longed for the rest of the chapters to be translated by him.

oh,

my maharishi inside me

wants me to translate,

though late, at any rate

and self promote myself

from rishi to maharishi

let me do plagiarism of my inside

and pose as original to out side

so easy it is, guru grace, plenty

as easy as updating my profile in st

and why not take advance promotion

declare [ deceive myself ] maharishi vasanth

none knows my secrete

of my doing imitate, without hesitate

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Rishi Vasanth

A min ago

Seriously , i feel like translating, it's even fun, ---maharishi has given all , it's just extrapolation, with a little more intrapolation, .

it's noble project, puts me in to right groove instead of frittering away with trifles , may be bit by bit posting in st first

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Rishi Vasanth

A min ago

Smitten. no surprise,

gurur brahma, the supreme is higher than the highest manifested human guru

his ways are strange

but that supreme shows always the best ways , thru experiences pleasant unpleasant, puzzling intriguing flabbergasting .

yet the out come is always all good .

it's a lesson that any sathguru once lighted the self,

stays inside, not outside,

not to be met, not to be talked to,

not to be clinging on,

not to be dependent on him any more

not to be piggy back on him,

not to be carrying him on our back.

the internal guru decides all the happenings

hence some seekers quit their human guru

and chart their own path

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Rishi Vasanth

A min ago

These are independent same trees ,

not the branches of the one tree

srisri ravishankar, rishi prabhakar, late ramayogi tho were close and highly evolved under maharishi, hey felt obliged to care their inner calls and started on their own .

the result is gururbrahma appearing in different avathars

every good shishya evolves to grow , may be far surpassing their greatest gurus .

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Rishi Vasanth

A min ago

Nothing is lost, the big tree remains big, the new small plants grow, away from the shade of the big tree, taking full nourishment sun light air manure from the big world away out side

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Rishi Vasanth

A min ago

Allow the internal guru to grow and guide, regardless, no sin,

all with the greatest respect and humility to the outside human guru

in the ' maharishi maheshyogi '', now what is left is maharishi,the green tree, '' maheshyogi ''having dropped off as a dry leaf

the rishi , maharishi, brahmarshi thathwas are eternal, always getting reborn with localized values as human form

we adore human

but we adore more the original non perishable , eternal guru thathva

jaigurudev