mystery begins

vague things, perceived when i was 8 , some flashes of some poetic, unclear flow, but definitely i felt it's happening inside me --once , resulting in some exhilaration, unusual and characteristic, alas , i could neither catch it and talk out nor could scribble it .

it just passed and i wasted a decade .

in my be course in the class room my prof was teaching with elaborate equations the heat flow process in the subject ''heat and mass transfer'', again a flash happened in the mind indicating to me that i discovered a n equation thru which every phenomena can be deduced and understood or derived . alas, neither could i explain nor put on paper but it did give an affirmation that i have discovered a valuable thing, 

it too just passed and i wasted another decade.

fortunately i stumbled upon tm 

now things are not as slippery as they were

except with a lament that ''if only i had that opportunity at 8 or at least 18 ......''

this is where, we have lost ourselves lost the life. this is when we must give the technique to the budding youth , to blossom in to gnana prasunam, --a way to reach in to his depth and accelerate the pace of evolution that is possible only for a human being.

hence one of the 16 shodasha samskaras the ''upanayana''

oh what a loss , youth has lost the wealth, the character , having only trivial at their disposal in plenty