I am good inside but i want to appear bad

 I am good inside

but i want to appear bad
i love the fun of being reacted on
so i give such comments that irritate

 
why all this, what is right, what is wrong 
what is the basis in seeing impurity when nothing impure really exist
when god is the ultimate creator, then every creation, including impure thots impure actions are his creations 

my assertion is that there is absolute purity inside outside in man, in every being in every content and every context in the universe

Apavithra pavithro va 
sarva avasthan gatho piva
yasmareth pundareekaaksam
sabahyaabhyantharah shuchihi

if every thing, every stage, every phase, any time, in every aspect is basically not pure
then where is the validity of above great manthra, instantly making internally and externally pure, by sprinkling of a few drops of water

what it basically does is --to simply remove the thought that there is some impurity , and showing the ever present purity 

so my conclusion is that there is no impurity even in the worst criminal , cheat corrupt , dishonest , since all are the products from within the divine factory , which is absolute hence all products are absolutely pure

 

Apavithra pavithro va -------

i learnt this sloka decades ago, 

i repeated this ,did the puja countless times 
but without knowing how is that it makes all apavithra into pavithra in this sprinkling, 

with my intellect just not accepting its logic, and so its import remained unrealized

but now only , this sloka revealed its true significance to me , now transforming the apavithratha of me and the universe into instant pavithratha for ever, me cognizant of the true ever present purity of god's ways

once with this revelation, this manthra did its effect infallibly, irrevocably, flawlessly 
and just by repeating/recollecting this manthra , my vision always gets set right , to perceive the purest in the most impure.